"What do you think the 7.1 in the display represents?"

is that the f-stop amount?

What a nice date night..that is so important in relationships...I am the first to tell people this but the last to do it...how horrible is that!  Ha..anyways..sorry I've been so absent lately!  I'm finally getting back into the groove of everything and after Dec 5th my work should come to almost a halt..anyways...BJ's..ha..I totally thought that was desert! jk..well scruffy, go get your hair cut!  I also can't believe you have to have 600 hours on an ambulance..seriously, that's a lot of hours.  I swear it's always something.. yano!  Well I'm off to read your adult entries...FINALLY!  Oh and you like my little nooner huh..men are soo easy sometimes!  JK..the only thing I wish my hubby knew was to stop making it a hill to die on..yano..that just makes s..x less fun..that's my biggest complaint..anyways..have a good day!

Love,
Jamie

I love this entry..I need to copy it and paste it so I don't lose it!  Sorry I haven't been on much b/c I've been super busy at work and I know you have 2 new entries in your adult entry so I'm going to try to read as much as I can before my next meeting...if I don't get to them today..I promise tomorrow!  I love your teaching method..I am sooo the type of person that learns w/pictures so thank you for posting them.  I am going to go home later and look at my camera to see if I can find my f spot!  I'm super excited!  I am going to my parents cabin in the forest for thanksgiving and I am hoping I can take some good pictures...maybe you can teach me some more techniques before then!  Have a good one teach!

Love,
J

Cher Saint Matthew,

Your pencil appears to be broken.   How's the adult world? 

ahhh you are a saint. thank you so much for doing this, it's going to help me a ton. of course, it would help me more if I had a better camera so I could learn things hands on. but I'm hoping I will eventually. you have a wonderful way of explaining things, I can't wait until the next entry.

thank youuu so much :)

oh wow, I didn't know you used to be a photography teacher. anything you can tell me about photography and/or ways I can improve in it, I would love to know. like seriously, tell me everything. haha.

unfortunatley I am broke and cannot afford a $400 camera, but I'm saving up and will eventually probably get one around $600. then I just have to learn how to use it lol.

and if tripods are only around $50 I'm sure someone will get me one for christmas or something, or I can just buy it with christmas money. actually come to think of it, I think my dad has one.

I need a freaking job, but I'm too busy with school. it really sucks. plus I'm not getting my license until june, that sucks too. I won't have a job till the summer, so I don't know when I'll be able to afford a nice camera. :(

but I could definetly use some photographic help, it would be greatly appreciated! have fun on your dateee :)

I thought I was the only one. It is frustrating. I used to be a bartender and people would always say to me smile its not that bad. I know it isnt and I would smile I just couldnt walk around with a smile plastered on my face all day.  I would look ridiculous then. I was also told by people who eventually got to know me thought I was stuck up because of how I looked. Its my face people.

I know I have never commented before but I have been reading, I dont know what the name of your adult diary is so if you could post a comment on my diary with it, I would like to get a chance to read it.  

Thanks

Amie

yes, I smoke. lol.

and I did in fact try to use myself as a model, but the common problems I run into is where to take the actual picture, where to set the camera if I'm not holding it myself, and usually lighting isn't too hard to figure out but I could probably use as many tips as I can get.

the girl driving would be me :)

I've been driving more, with my cousin since he's over 21. I'll be getting my license when I turn 18 in June finallllly.

and preston took the one of me in the grass. i love it.

thank you for the commments :) how have you been? how's the "transformation" coming along?

<3

Hey, You know you're doing great in life when you use words like this

"ventricularostomy"

I can't even begin to THINK about pronouncing that word.

2 kudos to you!

lol

M. Madilene M.

Maybe eating fruits will help with the sugar thing? Sugars naturally in fruit so...I don't know lol..I feel so bad for that old women! I hope she recovers well.. Just yesterday I saw a sign that said " Didn't vote? Then quit complaining!"

Watch Fight Club instead, it's man-spiration.  I think I'm going to watch it today even, I am supposed to be writing research papers, and I will, but I'm just in the mood to see that movie.  

My shins hurrrt from rrrunning....but I'm going for it again today.  It feels good.

hmm that's weird! I don't know why some of my pictures get x-ed out like that :(

try it nowwww.

and yes, I would very much like access to your adult diary. I'm sure it's very interesting.

:)

Maybe you could say your under construction or you are remodeling your body. lol.

Hmmmmm what's a better word for transformation?? I think Anna mentioned sculpting!  I can picture you standing there in the mirror looking like one of those Greek Gods posing all s..xy!  Ha....or as you say..Hugh Jackman!  Well thanks for commenting on my video..yes I was sooo into the performance...I was very proud and having my grandmother there made it better!  I'm glad you liked it and yes I felt like a big ol cow dancing up there!  how embarrassing!  Well I hope Obama does a good job too!  I'm keeping my fingers crossed...!

Thanks again!
Love,J

Ouch!!! Just reading about that old lady made me feel like it happened to my arm!!!!! Owwwwwie!!! Im excited for your 'transformation' (or you could call it sculpting the guns. hahah..Ever seen Anchorman..LOL) I hope you are able to see results soon..Im sure you will be. Sounds like your doing amazing. =]

I know I dont need a man to be happy. ..I guess I was trying to say something different in my entry.. I guess I just wish people were more polite and nice in the world. Im just sick of being the 'nice' person..When am I going to get what I deserve?? I guess..I was trying to have a different approach on that..I didnt mean to come off as whiney..Im a girl..I get into those kind of moods.. lol. =] Thank you for the comment though.. You are so nice. =] -A

ps..how many times did I say I guess?? lol. =]

that's really cool. I would love to do something like that, but like you, I don't have much drive haha. I'll do it for a week and then get off track. I'm sure I'd feel a hell of a lot better and gain some much needed energy. maybe I will someday :)

good luck to you!

any way I could get access to your adult diary?

Good for you..for doing this for yourself.  I know you will have the motivation..you def seem like the type that will start and finish without giving up.  I cant' wait to see the pictures and I know you don't have far to go!

Ps...NKOTB was kick ass! Don't be jealous! JK

Eating 6 small meals a day is perfectly sensible and suitable for someone working out 5xs a week. 

I don't know about the anti-Hugh Jackman body comment either, I've seen people drastically transform their bodies--not that they were particularly happy or healthy or able to maintain it for very long, but if you wanted to be that way just for a little while I'm sure you could.  I don't think you're that diluted anyway, I think you are just trying to get as close to that type of body as you can via a reasonable diet/workout regimen.   I don't know, here I am shoving words in your mouth. 

Today would have been a good day to start a transformation for me as well, too bad I already ate a bunch of jalapeno chips...sigh.   

I DEMAND A BODYSHOT! 

Difference between buffed and ripped = ?  Forgive my ignorance. 

I don't really know what I'm going to be.  My ideas have been: Isadora Duncan, Virgin Mary, girl from Lost in Translation (lazy costume just buy pink wig), Jodie Foster in Taxi Driver...roller skates.  I kinda just want to roller skate.  rollerskate?  roller skate?  meh. 

did you ever read kurt vonnegut?  he had a very high opinion of firefighters.  i think the novel "deadeye dick" mentions them quite a lot, but i could be wrong. 

i'm happy someone is doing something they enjoy with their life, so many people just plod along with jobs they hate and wait for their expiration date.  kudos.  hah, that was a cute cuplet--totally unintentional. 

hey matt :)

well, we're still kind of confused as to if we should be together or not. so we're just kind of "in between" right now if that makes sense haha.

and yeah you're right, I usually try not to put my subject directly in the center. I took a few shots of those trees uncentered, but they honestly looked better centered to me. mostly because those trees stood out to me in the first place because each of them were all alone in the center of a field. if I had a more expensive camera I definitley could have captured that better though.

:)

If you are happy with your work and D&D then who cares?  I guess you were happier having worked on the bike, so I guess I showed myself.  Boring is all relative--I'm sure my life is boring to some people and exciting/controversial to other people. 

SCUBA diving is teh awesomest though.  Get back into it if you get a chance, get your lady friend certified!  Underwater photography ftw! 

What kind of bike do you have? 

What guy doesnt have a star wars collection?? thats hot!!!  =] I think stuff like what you are saying just give you more personality.. I wouldnt get down on yourself for not having something going on every day or whatnot.  That doesnt mean your boring . You sound really interesting to me.  =] I kind of feel the same way though, not to be hypocritical or anything. . but I just feel like people get stuck in a rutt sometimes of the same ole same ya know.. and its ok.. It happens to everyone Im sure. Just try to change your daily routine a little, maybe by something small even like going for a walk and taking pictures of the scenary. . or something like that.  it might help. . =] 

Anyway. .I hope you have a good day. =]-Anna 

thanx one of these is now my desktop background! i think ur pretty good...

Sadi

hi matt about ur gf- b nice when u tell her. otherwise run and duck 4 cover! lol

Sadi 

Nice. .

Do you work at a nursing home? Im just wondering cause I used to work at one here too and we went by codes as well. I always had trouble remembering which one meant what. . haha. . kinda bad, but yeah. .

Work for me has been boring too. . I cant wait to get back in school to do something I actually enjoy. . . Eh. =]

and I look forward to reading more about you. =]

Hope your having a great day!!! Lostprophets is def. a good band. .if you feel like checking them out. =]

Btw. . I added you to my favs as well. .

What kind of music are you into?? Rock? if so. . you can never go wrong with chevelle, or three days grace, or (I have to say my personal favs..) something like Lostprophets, incubus (gotta love them) or motion city soundtrack (their from my hometown so I have to represent..lol) =]

Anyway, cant wait to read more!!! =]

Hey!! Thanks for the comment. =] I will try to give him my best "f-me" look . . hahaa. . =]

Whoa, love the car!!! "you can have s..x in a car like that!!!" =]  LOL.

The damn lizard is still in my office...I managed to shoo him away from my desk..i was tired of keeping my feet up!  Creepy little thing!!!  I swear as much as I try to stay away from the drama..some how I get sucked back in..but I refuse to do it anymore..moving on!!!! 

You're hilarious.  I have the same problem but no simple solution. 

Love it all!!!!!!  The dragon fly is amazing...I would print it and frame it too!  Wow you put a lot of time and energy into that car...you did an amazing job!!  You should be very proud of yourself!

Thanks so much for your advice, it was needed...obviously. Since that entry I have already gotten a hold of some people who can help me out. But tomorrow I am also going to get a hold of a social worker to see if they can help me any further! Your 1972 datsun 240z is pimp! I love the color...all you need is a number one and it could almost pass as the general lee...haa...no? Alrighty have a great night and thanks again :)

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i should steal ur car

lol jp

-isabella

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I have complete faith in you that you'll pass..not only are you smart, but you are passionate about it.  That's what we need...not some jackass that wants to be a fire fighter to look good..yano?  Thanks for your comment..I do feel I am growing up a bit!   ...I guess we'll see what happens w/E..time will tell..yeah Patty..WTF..she needs to grow the eff up..she emailed me a few mins ago trying to justify why she got mad..it makes no sense...I guess drinking 4 bottles of champagne between the two of us didn't help..but don't just up and leave w/out talking...childish!  Anyways, I hope the little kid is ok and is doing better...that so sad...go get to studying!!!!  Thanks again for your comments, it means alot!  I loved your first entry in your other diary!  I love reading about the male mind!  ..
Jam

owch..

r u a lifeguard or sumthin?
Dont let a little kid DIE next time aight

First off...yes I was access to your xrated diary..reading your last entries put me in a mood......thanks again for your comments about E...I am definately taking it slow and not getting my hopes up..the problem with me is I give soooo much to everyone and I expect the same in return...the downside is not everyone is like me...so I have to realize I can't take it personal...so we'll see...I'm glad you liked my comment as well.  I always feel so preachy when I talk...I guess b/c I've experienced it..it kinda gives me a heads up on it...all in all it's just my opinion and hopefully it will help you...

Seriously..I can't believe people who have pools can be careless when kids are around.  I understand that it's unexpected but you just never know...I agree that they need to watch their effing kids!  I hope the little one makes it though w/out brain damage.  You are so much stronger than you realize to have to deal with that.  It would just piss me off!  I respect you and your work!  I hope you do good on your CPAT...I know you will.  I am rooting for you!!!!!  Good luck!
xoxo Jam

You need to dump her ass!  Just kidding!!!!!!  Just trying to keep it light for ya!  Well coming from someone who had the same problem w/my hubby..I got to a point where I just had no s..x drive for him..no matter how many times we talked/argued about it, nothing changed...finally after like months of talking to our counselor she basically told me that if I don't reach out and have more s..x w/him, he may either stray or we would break up over it.  I obviously didn't want either..the problem was I was not comfortable w/myself..I was not happy with how I looked and therefore, it was hard for me to feel s..xy...no matter how often my hubby said I was s..xy..I kinda thought well he's just trying to get s..x...finally my therapist said..suck it up and fake it.  You'll program your brain to get back into having the s..xual relationship.  I think by you communicating w/her is awesome..a lot of people can't do that.  I also see how she said well I do this and this and that...that should show you how much I love you..now I know you do some of those things too..maybe do them more often and without her having to say something...again, I'm sure you've exhausted all your options, but there has to be something that will surprise her..at night, I find lighting candles rather than a tv/or dim lights help get me in the mood..

I know you said something awhile ago that she may be putting weight on..I guarantee you, that has something to do with it...make her feel s..xy..buy her cards and leave them around once in awhile showing your appreciation...little things like that go a loooooooooong way...damn..sorry about the length of this..I got carried away..all in all..I think you did a good job...kudos to you!
xoxo Jam

See the facts are thus: 85 percent of twenty- to thirty-year-old males think about s..x every fifty-two seconds and women think about it once a day -- or up to three or four times not even that I would say being a woman, in my opinion men dont realy go into detail about s..x it's more like a 52sec kinda thing lol whenever woman think about s..x it's more detailed then tht it takes me oh I'd say about 15 20 min to think of a really good s..xual thought (do you agree woman...or not?) Maybe try to ease her in to a good s..xual thought EASE!!! I say this becasue you dont want her to get pissed because your bringing up s..x again ya know? give her the facts I just stated then ask her do you agree...how many times do you think of s..x la de da la de da you get my point. If she starts thinking about a s..xual her imagination will run wild she'll want it even if it will take 15 20 min to get it you still got it...maybe. So good luck I wish you well with your ventures.

Good attitude! Hope things are well!!

Nice pics.
When I looked at the picture I thought it was a greyhound but I see you said she's a Whippet. I'm not familer with that breed. She is beautiful.

So do Whippet's have the same health problems as greyhounds?

Take care.
~Mystic

photography is something i like to do when i have spare time. i especially like to take pics in winter like when snow has just fallen, its sooo pretty!!! but my photographs arent nearly as amazing as these!!! they're like amazing, so incredibly professional looking!!! you should be a photographer!!! these are really incredible. cute dog also!!! ima add ya to my faves if you dont mind =]

Kassie <3

yes it matters.

hey buddy- just going through your diary (hope you don't mind). i text dirty throughout the day- it's like the longest foreplay ever.

also, do you think she's already noticed the 20lb difference (latest entry)? that might have something to do with it.